I know I'm a little late with this post, but it's better late than never, right? I've taken quite a bit of time to think about what's important to me, and what's relevant to what I really want to accomplish this year; and I've decided that giving away more free content to show my fans and friends my love is one of them! So, to start off in true resolution fashion, this is going to be a diary entry that's completely open to the public! I hope you enjoy my ramblings!
A little about the photos in this diary:
These photos are all courtesy of Robert Turi, a photographer in Tampa, Florida who I had an awesome time shooting with in October. I love these, particularly because they look so amazing unedited (as the ones you see here are!). I've always thought that models like myself had to Photoshop, primp and preen in order to attempt to look amazing in horrid climates. This beach session was after 4 hours of shooting already, in super high winds, sand in my eyes, heat, cold, heat, and working my butt off... and I still look awesome! No effort to it! Yay!
We also almost rear ended Turi, which he was totally sweet about! The water was so warm, and the sunset was so romantic-ly beautiful! I remember running into it and screaming and laughing, while the guys looked at me like, "WTF!?" Afterwards J, our friend Brian, and I, went out and had dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe! That trip also had me back in WWII, and going to Disney World for the first time to watch a heavy metal Opeth concert (what!?)! My favorite trip of 2011!
Click the pictures from the shoot to view them a little larger! :)
2012 NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS
1. Get re-Tiny!
Almost 2 years ago I was about 100 lbs, and barely ever pushed past that mark. I was still unhappy, and trying to go lower. Now, I know a lot of you are thinking, Jesus Christ! That is just too skinny, Tara you must have some kind of eating disorder, you are so unhealthy, etc., but I cannot stress to you all enough that I am 5'4", and I have a very small frame. It's totally normal to weigh little, and even at my low weight, I was never satisfied with my natural pear shape- my legs always held my weight, and with them being short, they look bad!
Anyway, I put on a little weight after traveling back-to-back for a bunch of months, and got compliments on the new, curvier figure I still gag at today. I decided to not worry about it too much, since my clients and... sex partners, weren't complaining. This madness stops HERE! I can't wait to have my tiny, fit, size super 0 body back! I'm not going to be unhappy any longer; I want to actually reach the perfect goal that I never could back then! I'm aiming to be the best body at Glamourcon LA 2012!
I hope that I inspire people to do the same, and get fit. When you're fit, not only do you look better, but you'll feel amazing! If you've never been in peak shape, or even at a healthy weight, you'll be absolutely shocked at how much energy you have... and just how healthy you'll feel! Just because you are! Go for it!
PS. E-mail me if you need help or motivation. I'm not only, technically, a certified personal trainer (all, but the math!), but I also know many professional fitness athletes, their secrets, and have went from 160 lbs to 100 lbs with my own technique! I know better than your silly local LA fitness trainer! Alternatively, you can check out one of my Tara Advice articles on fitness!
2. No lazies!
I have a terrible problem with procrastination and I totally have the "waiting until the last minute" medical condition. If I have an article to do, and I tell my editor it will be done by Sunday night... chances are it'll be done either Sunday night, or the next Tuesday. The problem with this, is that I pretty much call the shots in everything I do, and my "bosses" are very lenient with me, probably from dealing with a bunch of terribly unprofessional prima donnas who are far worse than I am, and demand far better. I would hate
to be lumped in there. I really am a hard worker, I just have an internal struggle with motivation from time to time, and I don't want to let that put a damper on my outward professional appearance!
Plus, it's annoying when I let little things like laundry, or taking out the recycling, pile up and then I have to do it all at once! Pfft!
3. Tara the Gamer Queen!
One of my main goals, and where I want my career to branch off to, is conquering the gaming community! I know I'm not the first pretty girl who's been into gaming, but I do know that I AM THE BEST!
Conceited-sounding, I know, but it's what I am going to prove! I'm on a mission to un-stereotype glamour models and gamers, making both a mainstream possibility, simultaneously! Gaming has always been one of my number 1 passions, alongside modeling, music and fitness/bodybuilding. Gaming improves your overall life so much, and gamers are so awesome and intelligent. I want that to be EVERYONE'S opinion! I've taken a specific interest in eSports, as it's an awesome community, and I've fallen in love with following the players and happenings. Of course, I'm more well-rounded with my gaming interests, and will continue to cherish my Impulse Gamer articles
My ultimate gamer goals are to: get published with gaming websites and magazines, and bring even more traffic to Impulse Gamer, and myself as a part of the community. I have 2 huge
goals, though... I want to host, or be a part of, an eSports event! The second is achieving a league ranking of at least
(jesus!) Platinum, and to start streaming on Twitch.tv!
4. LA Wanderlust! (and nix control freak mode)
So, I have been trying to think of ways that I can get to important modeling hubs near my base in Seattle without spending $1000/a trip, or dealing with annoying agencies and uncomfortable clients who want to book, and dictate, my trips. It's also always a pain in the ass staying fit when I'm not home for weeks at a time, or trying to maintain a tan, and pack 20832084203820 outfits into one checked bag. I've a solution!
I'm tinkering with the idea of making numerous smaller trips to closer destinations like Los Angeles, Pheonix, Portland, and Las Vegas. My thought process is leaving morning 1, booking 2 shoots for day 1, staying in a Hilton, or with a friend, booking 2 shoots for day 2, and then returning home that night. That way I don't have
to bring my assistant J (if I can stand being alone and independent... we'll see!), I don't have to check a bag, and I don't have to make huge changes to my life. I've checked the costs on this type of thing, and it looks like under $200 without the hotel cost, and up to $300 including a hotel. If I can secure just ONE
shoot for that duration, then I've made a profit! I'll also get to try add in some of my favorite photographers, castings, and time with friends more often! I'm excited!
In addition, I am going to try get a few more involved agencies, and allow them to help me in sorting bookings. I have been ABSOLUTELY
against other people having control, or meddling in my career, but lately, it's been getting a little overwhelming. I get multiple interview offers for online publications and print magazines weekly, lots of offers that go nowhere, and lots of fans posing as professionals. I also feel like I am being a bit overwhelmed with decisions, and I've been advised by a friend in the industry to let just a little
loose with the control of my career. I know I didn't get where I am without help, but I sure as hell have done whatever the hell I wanted, regardless!
CONCLUSIONS AND UPDATES
Well, that pretty much sums up where I want 2012 to go. I want to better myself in so many ways, and I want to get just a little bit closer to being satisfied with every aspect of my life. As always, my biggest goal is to just be happy, and never live a moment of my life where I feel like I am not being myself, or living the way I want to. I know I'll never be satisfied, and nothing will ever be perfect
, but I want that one perfect day I've been trying to accomplish my whole life! The rest is just about getting as close as possible!
Just a happy Tara picture. No editing, minimal makeup. No, I wasn't 12! It was recent!
Where to look for me in the near future... and other confirmed thingies!
- Maxim en Espanol
- AdultSwim.com 2012 Gamer Interview
- Impulse Gamer articles
- Lion's Den University weekly articles
- E3 with Unwired TV
- Glamourcon in LA
is on my BIRTHDAY this year! November 10, 2012!
- Much more to come!
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